We stood side-by-side in the kitchen, dealing to the accumulated dishes of the day. I can’t remember why Mahinārangi was in town but, whatever the reason, she was staying with my flatmate, Andrew, and I.
Getting to the kitchen had been a progression. After dinner we had first lingered at the table, then moved outside to the front steps to watch the stars; after the kitchen we would end up sitting on the couch for a few hours. We talked about writing and depression and love and home and illness and all the simple complexities of life.
In the kitchen Mahina had picked up an empty jar of Rose’s Lime Marmalade to dry. Andrew had a love of eating Rose’s Lime Marmalade on toast, and we had a steadily growing collection of the jars being reused to contain the awkward minutiae of our lives.
I was immersed in dealing to the dirty dinner plates when Mahina started playing the Rose’s Lime Marmalade jar. She turned it over and over and played the surfaces in different ways, mixed in with the clunk and slosh of the plates under my hands. Then suddenly, her tea towel cast aside, she began singing.
I won’t say that Mahina was singing to me. My presence was probably unnecessary. But she sang and played – the song was Greg’s Hat – two or three or four times in a row. Her voice was beautiful – scraps of the song are still scratched into my memory today. When she was finished, she looked at the jar and told me that she’d written the words a while ago, but hadn’t known what the melody was like, until she laid hands on that empty Rose’s Lime Marmalade jar. Throughout the rest of the evening she kept the jar with her and would play with its tones while we talked.
When she was getting ready to leave, car packed and ready to go, Mahina stood in front of us and asked, with deep seriousness, if we would possibly consider gifting her Andrew’s precious taonga. And from behind her she produced the empty Rose’s Lime Marmalade jar.
The sound of her laugh was better than any sound the jar made.
Andrew gave her this precious musical taonga, after she agreed that it would be fully credited as “Andrew’s Rose’s Lime Marmalade jar” if she used it in recording any songs.
More laughter. The jar was wrapped carefully and put in her bag.
I miss Mahina. I miss her words. I miss her laugh. I miss her emails, which always started Kia ora lovey or Kia ora girlie, and finished with arohanui, mahina xxx
First published in Broadsheet 10 (2012)